My 56th Birthday. I am surprised to be still alive and kicking!

I am surprised at how, and why, an ordinary person such as myself has been gifted with such a wonderful set of people, starting with my mother, wife, sons and daughters, uncle, brothers and sisters.

Then there are my respected and revered friends, spread across the globe, who love and care for me unconditionally.

My business partners and colleagues, who so passionately care not only for my business life to be successful, but that my health and well being are also in check, not to be lost in the pursuit of material and financial prosperity. 

I don’t know why, how, when, who or what put all that beauty and love in place for me to savor and enjoy. 

Why then am I so restless and hungry for more?

So vigorous in my search for a higher purpose?

So demanding and conditional — what am I searching for?

The truth is, I don’t know.

What I do know is that I don’t really know what I’m searching for. 

If I can’t answer this, then, by extension, I do not know what end outcome I really desire.

Happiness, peace, money, social status, fame, more high and mighty friends, stronger family unity and harmony, better health…?

If I don’t know the answers to these questions… 

Should I seek out more high and mighty friends? 

Or should I live my life without setting any specific goals, only responding and reacting as well as I can to whatever comes in my daily and weekly life?

I know that I am not prepared well enough, to set high goals or to live my life on a day-to-day basis. 

Then what should I do? The only answers I get from my heart are:

Love back all the good people

Love back all the work that is done, and is to do

Love back all the events that have happened, and will happen 

Love back all the failures and pass on their lessons to others

Love back all the small achievements and keep the fruits well-distributed

Love back all the materials that make life happy and share them fairly

Love back all the places I have gone to, and am yet to see

Love back all the love there is, with full heart and soul

Certainly, I do not want to be a bigger receiver than giver

Maybe this is a very lofty goal for a small being such as myself, but there is no harm trying.

Let me at least forget my little worries, and appreciate the fulfillment of receiving the care and love of giving more than I receive. 

May I open up and fearlessly make the best of my day today.